He always felt in solitude.
Never a single person fully understands the nature of such a human.
He was so pleasantly distanced from the crowds around, that he never felt attached to someone or something, yet wanting them to get closer to It, holding a burning charcoal in his hand and conscious of it. No pain, nor pleasure, it is just a sensation.
Yes, he connects with people when there is some form of communication between them, and fully present he is then. Yet there is only so many he can hold in his short attention span. He always thought of certain kinders, of memory in the jungle, lying on ocean's sand, sitting on a coach, walking through an oval-shaped path that had birds repeatedly singing through speakers. Little conversations pop out on the way through the multiverse of realities people lived in his own existence.
He was free to enter through their realities, absorb their experience and be comfortable in it, most of the time. "To fully understand" he thought "a person's existence, one must live as part of their reality." and then he expanded "Every consciousness lives a little bit in their own world, connected to other worlds, some that are shared in groups, some are shared by all. They see you as a character in their story ready to be played."
He wrote an extensive research paper (which has 0 number of references, except for his life's experience) about the concept of "Living in one's shoe" or sometimes he thought of it written "Living in One's shoe". Of course he always knew he will be a guide at some point in this life, but to be able to guide oneself; gives enough satisfaction.
And what better way to do it but to play the character they want you to be, with a bit of a twist. Hence when we surrender to a reality created by an Other, and lose the need to create our own, we move one step closer towards a One reality. A one. Not the One, neither The One, maybe it's not about living a certain reality already created "from the start", but to continue towards a reality of another kind.
He saw that discovering one's self is probably the most important task anyone could do.
And so, he wonders this Earth, looking for specific seconds in a person's reality where he could intervene, and disable a few perspectives on how their world is. Little shifts happen in their earth's plates, the spine forms another kind of order, and he see it done.
Only one thing you must accept, you cannot escape these shifts he and his kinders deliver, not when every part of your bone, flesh, and spirit wants to run towards truth, in the back of your mind you know it's inevitable, the day of judgement is not getting any further.
So stop when you see him next time, give him a few specific seconds, you probably won't like it then, but regret will never cross your mind.
Although he was, as we all have been, young.
