i swore

"i need to avoid relationships"

that's it, i just said, with my lips

it is sewing too much delusion

and its always slips

left my french friend

smiling with relief

that no more, i have to pretend

my arms for people, i will extend

i took a turn and stopped

thinking i saw World pointing at something i dropped

but i didn't look back, i stared

at the blue eyes against mine, flared

i couldn't remember her voice

i couldn't remember her size

i didn't really have a choice

her eyes were honest skies

days come, and days piled

her friendship always smiled

but to the first line, i was hostile

i knew the situations

but thought it was worthwhile

i read once, that accepting your love

towards someone that has a different dove

towards someone that didn't feel ties

is love acquired by the wise

and i learned from her

that if someone hears your heart

and still accepts your part

that is someone you cherish, a lot

and i was, i did

i said it to her twice

"i greatly value our friendship"

i don't need to seek the relationship

but i swore

i will not fall in love once more

until that feeling again comes fore

dream of reality

a pink explosion

suffers my eyes

internal implosions

rips my thighs

emotionless is the way to go

for peace and harmony to grow

my face receives a fist's blow

"wake up, wake up"

"this isn't wonder land"

i stand, he spits

"this world is made for man"

i refuse, i kick

i shout: "i am sick!"

i punch and flick

an image snaps, 'click'

i look at the discarded photo

i see a person dismissed

with "dream" as his motto

with eyes that said

he knows, but doesn't

he sobs, but within

his core, is burning

his doors, left broken

i threw the photo

it broke

into tiny pieces of mirror

reality is not clearer