within lies the expression

my neck hurts, i have been thinking of getting a massage for a long time now, but it hasn't happened yet. My back is so solidified, it doesn't hurt anymore.

An interesting concept I have been thinking about, the idea of waiting for the right things to happen at the right time. Sometimes I know what I need to do to solve something, or of one way to fix it, but I only do it when the non-thought moment drive takes me there. It seems when it does, it arrives effortlessly and on the right time.

Non-thought moment drive, a term I made up, for the instances when you do something without really thinking about, when you do, it comes in naturally with a smooth execution. When the only thing ever happening to you at that moment is pure focus and perfect balance. Such moments come with out our control, yet we call for them, and they come in the right time.

Sometimes I do contemplate is it our thoughts that hinderance us, or is it the type of thoughts and our concentration on them. I feel that curious thoughts that come in are like breezes of wind in summer, that swoop my head towards a direction, then leaves me with a cool freshened feeling.

curious ways and ideas
passing
they come in playfully,
are taken seriously,
held in the palm of the hand,
for the wind of sub-consciousness to sweep them away, again

what is the right time? is it the correct? or is it the time where things align, and the movement between the door and the other seems to have spent no energy, gained none, but has kept it's balance, between falling and staying still, kept the flow unshaken, revolving towards momentous moments of eternal joy.

i am really feeling like a cog, in the machine we have all been playing with, part of. There is no easy escape from it, so better play around with it, use it to learn, to then be super conscious and have super powers! Because then I can split into two and be in different places, still have one soul, but two bodies, one is be part of the machine, and the other in the mountains. Where I can be part of the machine game, yet go back to the mountains when I want to scream and chant at the same time, and dance in the name of lost souls and merry spirits.

I am waiting for the right moment, yet the waiter doesn't sit and wait, it is sending a message out, doing your thing, and recognizing when the message has been accepted or not.

It is not about gaining as much as you want, as fast as you want. It is the focused and balanced movement, wether it's slow or in an instant, towards aligning the body, mind, emotions, soul and spirit into understanding of each other, and working together.

The war within the self, has become a discussing within to resolve differences, and understand the different parts of the self.

This is why I didn't get a massage yet.